I Ain't Feelin' That
Updated: Feb 15, 2018
Today, my spirit was down. I didn't like the feeling, so I thought I would pray it away...
I prayed several times throughout the day, but still the feeling lingered like a dark, stubborn rain cloud. The situation at the time merited a down feeling, however my thought was, "I have a lot to be happy about! I shouldn't feel this way."
Then a thought came to mind that made me realize how silly it was to think that all the good things in life should automatically make me 'feel' better. When I'm feeling excited, overjoyed, and happy, I never tell myself, "There is so much hurt in the world; I shouldn't feel this way!" Allowing myself to feel joy and happiness doesn't mean that I am unaware of the pain in this world. We can sympathize with others, and be cognizant of unfortunate situations while feeling happy.
"My soul is exceedingly sorrowful" Matthew 26:38
It would not make sense for the angels to be singing "peace on earth and good will to all men" when their Creator and Lord was about to be mercilessly tortured and pinned to a cross. Jesus was not skipping and laughing that night. His soul hung low and his heart was dragging through the dirt as He stumbled in the garden. Jesus had every reason to feel "Exceedingly sorrowful." Imagine one of his disciples saying to Him, "You're the Son of God! You shouldn't allow yourself to feel like that!"
Instead of trying to pray His feelings away, He asked for His Father's will to be done. Jesus endured the sorrow because He was looking beyond his immediate feelings and forward to what His sacrifice would accomplish.
God gave us feelings for a reason. Feelings are to the soul what the sky is to the earth. However, we need to be careful to not go to either extreme. One person allows their feelings to govern their behaviors, thoughts, and decisions, while the other attempts to reject all feelings during their decision -making process. Both are dangerous to spiritual and emotional well-being.
If you are going through a particularly down season in your day or life, instead of praying that God takes the feeling away, ask Him to reveal Himself to you while you are experiencing despondency. It is during the darkest night that stars shine the brightest! The glory and magnificence of the heavens are at their peak at night. But let the sun come blazing through and the majesty of the night sky is conquered by the vehement light. So it is with your soul. Instead of saying, "No, I ain't feelin' that," allow yourself to feel, but give God permission to show Himself as the Mighty Comforter that He is.
This doesn't mean that you give your feelings total control. Rather, you are allowing your soul to experience the various seasons that it naturally has to go through. Sometimes your health fails, money is tight, your relationship is shaky, work is stressful, your faith wavers, friends disappoint you, the news frightens you, children act up, or disasters occur. All of these merit feelings of sadness, disappointments, fear, and even anger. God is powerful enough to manifest Himself to you even when you are experiencing these emotions. His love is placed on full display and by looking to Him, you find peace even when you're experiencing grief or anger.
For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Psalm 30:5
When you're going through a rough time, it helps to have a support system; family who will be there to pray with you. At Highland Avenue, we are here to walk with you through life. If you're happy and you know it or if you sad and know it, we're here for you.